I have big dreams. I always have. A lot of times they end up scribbled in a journal that gets stacked on a shelf somewhere. But a few times in my life I shoot for the moon and some how, make it happen.
But here's the catch, they never ever look like what I thought they would.
Tuesday, we realized that it was time to make a decision. Either we cling to that beautiful shiny idea that felt so perfect not-so-long ago, or we let it transform into something else. And sure, it's scary and uncomfortable not knowing how things will turn out. But I had to let go of the way I wanted things to go and just let them go. Even if it terrifies me.
But it's hard. I feel like I'm grieving the loss of something that seemed so amazing. I'm so sad that with the hits and misses, the inventory checks and accolades I won't have this amazing partner by my side. But we realized that we weren't a perfect fit for this. And now we get to keep all the love and friendship and release the tension, and trust me, there was a lot of tension. Now it's scary thinking about putting myself out there and going it alone, but I will. I have to.
So, until VEV is a brilliant success, and I jetting off to give keynote lectures on how to be amazing and make your ideas happen, I'm going to have one phrase manicly cycling through my brain (I stole it from Mark Bradford), "I always make the shot. It may take me longer than some, but I always make the shot." It got me through grad school, layoffs, breakups and now, starting a business based on another one of my big dreams.
Wish me luck,
If you see me staring off into the ether, feel free to hug me because I might need it.