To say the least I've never had it easy. I'm no stranger to abandonment and I suppose that's why I don't value myself very much. That shows in every part of my life. I hide my face in pictures usually and if someone does have the chance to snap a picture I typically look uneasy and awkward, causing me to be even more fervent in hiding myself from the camera. Even more so I'm afraid that those pictures taken during those uneasy, awkward moments is how the world sees me. That I'm looking at myself through someone else's eyes and I start to understand why being abandoned is such a common motif in my life. When the idea of a photo shoot became very possible I was terrified that another set of photos would be a reminder that I'm not comfortable in my own skin. But, once I met the women I'd be working with I began to loosen up.
I was introduced to everyone that would be working with me. How comfortable and light-hearted the environment was made it easy to relax. The make-up artist was delightful, chatting with me and complementing my eyelashes. It felt so nice to be welcomed into an environment of strangers and have such a warm reception greet me. Jillian was so helpful and informative and Gia was so easy to work with. She gave me directions for how to pose and was understanding about my lack of experience. Walking out of the studio I felt a new sort of confidence and warmth. Despite my wonderful experience I was still uneasy about how they would turn out, that even professionals might not be able to get around my awkward-duck like mannerisms.
But then I saw the first picture. My jaw dropped. I couldn't believe they had done such an amazing job. It makes me feel like I have the potential to portray myself more gracefully than I've done before. For young women my age we're constantly bombarded by images of perfection. I've always hoped in the back of my mind that it was possible but never truly believed it could be. This shoot has completely changed the way I see myself. Vev has been a milestone in my life and I would suggest them to everyone I know.