Coming from an art and design background, I'm usually one behind the camera critiquing and analyzing. When I'm the subject of a shot, I just can't help "art directing" my face, which leads to traumatic self-criticism.
When Vev approached me, I was shocked and scared. What do they see that I can't see? Surely they made a mistake. I'm so awkward... so awkward looking! How can they get any images from me?
I convinced myself to face my fear of the camera. Everyone at Vev had this level of casual ease and warmth. They knew what they were doing, and were confident they could make me shine. I felt accepted and beautiful, something I have a hard time doing myself. I was reminded of the cruelty of my craft, and how I feed into it. It's the norm to dissociate, turn people into subjects for analysis and critique. My experience with Vev was the exact opposite. I felt like a PERSON with my own unique beauty, that which Vev captured and mirrored back to me.
I was amazed and touched by the final image. If they could see that in me, then perhaps I can too, and maybe the camera isn't so scary after all.